Day 3: Hus Forbi

Here in Denmark, the people that is poor, they sell newspapers. But how have we all allowed rich and poor, where we allow the poor to starve or sometimes, only get by. It is not fair, because we are all Equal and One, thus we should make sure Everione is Equally Supported, and not only allowed to sell newspapers under the rain in Denmark.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to permit the existence of rich and poor 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow the existence of inequality

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be rich while fearing to be poor

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be rich instead of working towards making sure that All are supported Equally

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to make love real by doing and creating what is Best for All

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that inequality is not admissible

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that unless everyone is supported equally I have not honoured All Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to take only for myself while disregarding all else that have less luck than me, less opportunities than me, less resources than me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel pity for the poor instead of working on solutions like Equal Money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to be poor

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to work only for myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only care for myself

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to act in ways that are Best for All always

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from everyone else by living in self-interest

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that if i don't get first I won't get anything instead of realizing it is about giving as I would like to recieve, so give first

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be rich without doing anything other than just surviving with my job while fearing being poor

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to have the guts to make me rich within the principle of doing what is Best for All - to support All Life Equally

Day 1: Not Quite There

It doesn't matter how much time I have been on and off writing blogs in this 7 year Journey to Life, I haven't achieved the 2555 blogs/days mark that are 7 years of Daily blogging. So it's more like I will finish this Journey in 2030 or beyond, and it is okay.

I have noticed that I am not changed, that I still struggle with the same points as the beginning of this journey, while I have changed some aspects of myself, I am not yet in the 'nothingness' stage, where I reach nothingness and from where I can start my process of Self Creation.

There are no shortcuts to the Journey to Life, that's what I have observed in myself, gotta be self-honest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that because I have walked over many years that I have reached nothingness whithout testing and making sure of it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see what reality shows me, in my behaviour and living, that I have not reached nothingness yet

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that this process takes 2555 days of daily writing, nothing less, nothing more.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that there is no easy way, only 'the way'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become 'lazy' and want to take shortcuts in the Journey to Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that every person is a unique case and that I should not compare myself to other people 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can make the Journey to Life in less days than 2555 days/ 7 years.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that standing up is not only in writing a blog daily but in standing up in reality, the way I live every day

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that unless I am the same 'yesterday, today and tomorrow' as Jesus said, I am not changed in fact

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to 'have done it' instead of 'doing it' in fact - the 7 Years Journey to Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that even though I might see what I want to do in life, this doesn't mean I have made it to nothingness in the 7 Year Journey to Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I have to prove it in real space-time that I have changed in fact

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allwoed myself to believe that I can't make the 7 Year Journey to Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allwoed myself to not see that if Bernard did it, I can do it too

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am capable of finishing but most importantly walking the 7 year journey to Life

I commit myself to trust myself that I can walk the 7 year Journey to Life

I commit myself to not give up in the 7 year Journey to Life

I commit myself to walk the 7 Year Journey To Life until it is done, no matter how long it takes

I commit myself to take it one day at a time, and to walk on day at a time and write once a day until it is done

I commit myself to support myself in seeing that unless I walk it every day, or the next day if I miss one day - it will not walk itself

I commit myself to see that I am capable of walking the 7 Year Journey To Life

I commit myself to remind myself that walking the 7 Year Journey To Life is not only on paper but in real-time living

I commit myself to let go of all addictions and behaviors that don't serve myself or Life in my Journey to Life

Day 56: All Comes Together - My Last Entry

This is my last entry on this blog. Like the lyrics say 'what you do when the chapter ends, do you close the book and never read it again?' I have been pushed to talk and take this decision that I realized, hey, I have gone through the eye of the needle. If I don't accept myself to have done it I will forever sabotage myself, because I tend to never give up which means I am 'stuck' in some application, like I repeated the first course of university several times although failing at it until I eventually moved to do something else.

'The sun comes down and comes back up' say the lyrics of 'Hold on' by Louis Tomilson

I never gave up this process, I might have had times where I didn't apply myself at all and indulged as they say in 'terrenal pleasures' avoiding taking responsibility for myself, but then I would go back to writing. 

Over the course of my process of blogging, 7 years journey to life, I started on the 10th of April 2008, so making the numbers I have walked this blogging process for 15 years and a half. I was 17 years old at the time I started this blog. I'm 33 now.

I have written 454 plus blogs over three different blogs: 

- This one you are reading now

- aStudentJourneyToLife

- BipolarsJourneyToLife

What impulses me to say I have realized who I am and that I am done with the 7 years journey to Life, I stumbled upon the blog by Kristina named 'My final entry' and I saw enough is enough, I can't always think that I am in page 1 when I am not! I know who I am because I have proved it through time that I don't give up and I am still Here no matter what. And it doesn't feel like I have reached anything, it doesn't feel diferent but I trust myself to walk no matter what.

Now as Kristina shares, the process and self forgiveness and expansion never finishes, so now starts the process of Self-Creation.

I know 'what I want out of life' and I am decided to get it done. I know what I will accept and allow and what I won't accept and allow. 

I remember the moment I said to myself 'ive gone through the eye of the needle' but I don't remember exactly what I was doing, if I was high or not -lol. I now have a stable presence, physical presence and I am glad I am Ending this chapter and opening another one of Self-Creation.

How do I know I am not fucking with myself? That I have reached the point of nothingess? I will cross-reference it. Time will  tell. Who is Life and who isn't. Enjoy

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Day 55: Back to Basics

This Blog is in reply to an acquaintance 'philosophy' called 'The Radiant People' 

Back to basics: To make the world a better place = to do what is Best for All.

There is no lessons to learn in this world such as through suffering or otherwise, we either support what is Best for All or we don't, and then there is consquence accordingly, a consequence that is Best for All or not. If it is not Best for All, the being that does not support that which is Best for All is automatically abdicating his right to existence - thus will be eradicated.

The same for Love: Real love is to do what is Best for All. Real love still doesn't exist in this world, where only self interest and abuse exist so far.

Think about the animals that are skinned alive daily, how is 'your love' helping out in that? On the other hand with Equality for All such practices will be abolished for eternity.

There is no specialness of beings, higher bings or otherwise, we are all Equal, and have to do what is Best for All, or die/cease to exist.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be special as in have special knowledge to be placed above others in my specialness while in fact I disregard all other Life, and allow Life to suffer in unimaginable ways.

There is a process of self forgiveness that is needed, and to walk for a minimum of 7 years doing blogs every day, with this process, which can extend more than 7 years, 'In this journey the patterns that constitute what we have accepted as Our Reality will be deconstructed through self forgiveness and re-constructed through a commitment of correction to that which is best for all life.'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to assume who we are without seeing direct, who we are is Life and so we should take care of all other Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have aquired some divine knowledge and that I know more than others and can help this world through energy, disregarding the millions of beings that suffer daily due to the real problem: Inequality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have been conned by the Con of Conciousness, jumping into conclusions of what everything is, without using common sense to see reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that the message of Jesus is most relevant, 'do unto another as you would like them to do onto you'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to go into specialness instead of supporting Equality where there is no 'more' or 'less' of individuals but Equals, yet no Ego can exist so instead I support the Ego in playing the saviour through philosophies that don't support whats best for All but further separation.

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Day 54: Single

Single

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to have sex

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to  desire to have a girlfriend

I forgive myself that I have accepte and allowed myself to not see realize or understand that it is fine if at the moment I don't have a relationship

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand the importance of time and process

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in regret in terms of having wasted time

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that is when I walk that I see where I should go next

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to simply start doing

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as more experienced for knowing about this topic of equality, while the person is still interested in other topics.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as both with food and with flaws

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that if I lose my job, without other income, I am having to change jobs or go unemployed.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I have  intrinsic value, and don't need someone external  to value myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear consequence for not moving myself effectively

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being skinned alive as an animal

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear having to move myself to change this existence

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can effect world change more that I can conceive.

Day 53: I Am Here

 

Here I am, I am here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see my original innocence.

I forgive myself that I have acccepted and allowed myself to not see that I am not my addictions

I forgive myself that I have acccepted and allowed myself to not see that I am not my limitations

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I am one and equal as breath, as Life

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I am not my shortcomings

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see my potential

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see all that I can be

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not forgive myself effectively

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am Here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see what I can forgive myself for 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have a hard time forgiving myself because I am not specific enough

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to talk back, have back chat in my head

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be spiteful in my back chat in my head

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to have 'security' in my job

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that there is no security anywhere

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am here

Day 52: Self Forgiveness on Spitefulness

I listened to the recordings by Bernard Poolman 'Why We Are Here on Earth' and here is my self forgiveness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become spiteful

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from Life by being spiteful

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to have power

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I cannot be Equal, so in my inferiority I spited everyone else

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see myself as equal to everyone else

I forgive myeself that I have accpted and allowed myself to live to experience energy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in  my spitefulness believe that I can get power over others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I cannot possibly control others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be a ruler of this reality

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I cannot become the ruler of this reality so then I simply spite everyone else because I didn't get what I wanted

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am equal to all others so there is no more or less and that is enough, Equality is enough

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I can be contented and satisfied being one and equal to everyone else, united as Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that unless I forgive myself for my spitefulness I will simply continue

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am One and Equal as Life

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that I have to forgive myself to give myself the key to Equality

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in separation from myself, from who I really am as Life

I commit myself to forgive myself until it is done

I commit myself to remind myself to forgive myself

I commit myself to remind myself to breathe

9 Years

 Nine years have passed since I wrote in this blog, and I am happy to write here again. I am older and (maybe) wiser but also I might have had a different spark back in the times I was 22. I am 31 now. 

Back then I had a wish, that things would change. And things have changed, for the worse. I am talking on an existential level, here on Earth, things are getting worse. And I see that I can't do much about it other than starting with myself. This has also been the point, self first, and here I am. It's 1:26 at night and I can't go back. I can't go back to when I was 22 and coerce myself to change, it is in every moment that I have to change.

I have been obsessed with change, but what is it really? When all on the outside collapses. When there is only me left with myself in my bed at night, with unrest for what I could be doing, so much more than what I have done. 

But there - I was going to say that there is hope - but there is no hope, there must be no hope, because hope has mantained me in a way of inaction, not changing myself hoping for a better future. It doesn't work this way. 

At the moment I see myself so insignificant but it doesen't have to be this way, I have kept writing blogs on two other blogs that I have kept, astudentsjourneytolife and bipolarsjourneytolife. I skipped the students' journey to life because I thought I was no longer a student - and could do a better job at walking the bipolars journey to life. As I was saying, it doesn't have to be this way. I feel insignificant because I believe I have no relevance, and I believe I have no relevance but yet this message will reach someone so I will go to the facts:

We are fucked - and this is not a negative message. There is no way out - and this is not a negative message - but only one, to do what is Best for All. And I believed that by merely keeping alive I was doing a favour to someone - that is not true. It is not true because by merely surviving, nothing will change. It is time to create - a world that is Best for All. 

And this is what frustrates me - but why - because the world is not Best for All. Then I should start with myself - push myself to become the best version of myself. That is why I am writing now, not to cry, not to rant and rave about how fucked we are, but there is a way out, remember? Yes, no matter what I do I cannot escape from the consequences of my actions, and so everyone else - from consequence.

So in the meantime, while the world goes to shit, we are doing like Nero, singing with a small harp while the city burns down to the grown, but withdraw the R, remove the R from Nero and you get Neo - the matrix is real and the red pill is real too. Still have to change the world though - but in the meantime I will recover first from taking the red pill - which is when Neo is in a way reborn in the movie -- I am walking my 7 year journey to life to be born again in the pysical, to stop the mind.

I still remember the first time I realised I could talk in my head, to curse and say whatever I wanted, as a little child - it was precisely when my dog was put down and I was very angry, then my mind activated and voilà it was running like a perfect machine - but it can be unplugged. Check out Desteni.org and the blogs, 7 year journey to life blogs, and start your own so that you can show as proof the process you walked and where you stand, because in times of trouble no one will know = who to trust.

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