This is not working

Saturday afternoon, I am disctacting myself and not doing the school work. 17:25 right now.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not move myself to get school work done.
I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself in doing the school work
I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to distract myself instead of doing school work
I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to want it to be too late so I don't have to do school work
I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe and try to deceive me in thinking that if I don't face myself I can somehow avoid it, it is impossible

I face myself with school

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to want to remain in the confort zone instead of going through what I resist

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to resist doing school work

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself in doing school work

I can do school work

I am here

The decision

To stop living unresponsibly, to no more disregard myself and start taking care of my needs within the reality: Food and shelter. I have to go through school to get a job to get money to survive. OK. Let's do it.

I have been eluding my responsibility with school, this is not acceptable, because this implies having to rely in my parents instead of providing for myself.

I have been resisting so much school that the situation has worsened: No problem, as long as I don't repeat it. Because resisting school has lead me where I am now, not resisting it will change my experience, obviously.

In seeing that I've been not taking self responsibility I have two options: Continue living this way or stop it and not repeat it again.

I have to forgive myself and take corrective application, i.e. directing myself to go through school.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not direct myself in facing school

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to react to the resistance of doing the school work instead of getting it done

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be angry because I've not directed myself in getting school done

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe I cannot do school work

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to yawn

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that I cannot get things done

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that it's too late to be able to pass this course

I believe that I cannot fuke'n stop procrastinating

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that I cannot stop procrastinating

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to want to give up!

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to give up facing myself with school and process

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear facing myself with school in fear of failing

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not want to see me failing, and avoid facing myself to not have to fail

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear my mothers judgements for me not passing -she would be not happy about it

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear my mothers and eviroment reactions to me not passing course

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear not passing course, and my mother not wanting to support me with money because I've not forced/willed myself to get it done - which would be true, is true

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as incapable of doing the school work I have to do, to not have to do it

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear my mother/parents not supporting me, because I've not supported myself

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to want my parents to support me financially instead of me supporting me

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to judge school as 'too dificult' to not have to face it

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear repeating course

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear not having money to repeat, to pay for the next year consequence of my acts: repeating

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe I can't get this done

I can get this done

I will myself to get school done

I am done with this - I don't accept or allow myself to procrastinate with school anymore

i trust myself to direct myself to get school done

I stop the cycle

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that self forgiveness is not effective

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to sleep when I have to do school work

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can only be honest if I pass this course

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe I cannot provide for myself

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to desire to pass this course

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to desire having money - instead of moving effectively to get money - be able to get money

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that its better if I do the school work next year..

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to want others to be self honest and do process instead of me applying myself in my process and face what I've manifested

Last cigarrete: Money buy cigarettes lol

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to want my parents to give me money

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can fail

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear failing

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to say I wouldn't buy cigarretes until I worked -with the money I earn y would buy cigarretes -and instead buy it

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to distract myself with anything instead of facing what is needed to do, school

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to avoid doing school in fear of failing

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to give up school every time I have to face it.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear not having money

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear being disregarded because I've not passed this course completely

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear 'loosing credibility' for not passing this course

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to place self 'credibility' in this course

I am self credibility - I am self validation

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe I need school in order to be valid

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear my mother/father/others judgements for the fact that I am smoking and not wanting to pay for it for myself

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear developing a illness because of smoking

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear developing an addiction to smoking

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to disconnect and not face the work I have to do at school or at home from school




When I go at home the weekends, I do nothing from school. I've said to my mother that I am not doing the school work, so I have an excuse for not passing, I have the excuse so they cannot say I am not good enough, I just have to say: I didn' t do it, so I didn't pass

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to want others/my family having the opinion about me that I am good enough

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am not good enough and want others/family to believe that I am

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can't stop procrastinating

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can't pass this course