Day 54: Single

Single

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to have sex

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to  desire to have a girlfriend

I forgive myself that I have accepte and allowed myself to not see realize or understand that it is fine if at the moment I don't have a relationship

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand the importance of time and process

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in regret in terms of having wasted time

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that is when I walk that I see where I should go next

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to simply start doing

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as more experienced for knowing about this topic of equality, while the person is still interested in other topics.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as both with food and with flaws

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that if I lose my job, without other income, I am having to change jobs or go unemployed.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I have  intrinsic value, and don't need someone external  to value myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear consequence for not moving myself effectively

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being skinned alive as an animal

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear having to move myself to change this existence

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can effect world change more that I can conceive.

Day 53: I Am Here

 

Here I am, I am here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see my original innocence.

I forgive myself that I have acccepted and allowed myself to not see that I am not my addictions

I forgive myself that I have acccepted and allowed myself to not see that I am not my limitations

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I am one and equal as breath, as Life

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I am not my shortcomings

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see my potential

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see all that I can be

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not forgive myself effectively

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am Here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see what I can forgive myself for 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have a hard time forgiving myself because I am not specific enough

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to talk back, have back chat in my head

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be spiteful in my back chat in my head

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to have 'security' in my job

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that there is no security anywhere

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am here

Day 52: Self Forgiveness on Spitefulness

I listened to the recordings by Bernard Poolman 'Why We Are Here on Earth' and here is my self forgiveness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become spiteful

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from Life by being spiteful

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to have power

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I cannot be Equal, so in my inferiority I spited everyone else

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see myself as equal to everyone else

I forgive myeself that I have accpted and allowed myself to live to experience energy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in  my spitefulness believe that I can get power over others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I cannot possibly control others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be a ruler of this reality

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I cannot become the ruler of this reality so then I simply spite everyone else because I didn't get what I wanted

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am equal to all others so there is no more or less and that is enough, Equality is enough

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I can be contented and satisfied being one and equal to everyone else, united as Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that unless I forgive myself for my spitefulness I will simply continue

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am One and Equal as Life

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that I have to forgive myself to give myself the key to Equality

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in separation from myself, from who I really am as Life

I commit myself to forgive myself until it is done

I commit myself to remind myself to forgive myself

I commit myself to remind myself to breathe