It doesn't matter how much time I have been on and off writing blogs in this 7 year Journey to Life, I haven't achieved the 2555 blogs/days mark that are 7 years of Daily blogging. So it's more like I will finish this Journey in 2030 or beyond, and it is okay.
I have noticed that I am not changed, that I still struggle with the same points as the beginning of this journey, while I have changed some aspects of myself, I am not yet in the 'nothingness' stage, where I reach nothingness and from where I can start my process of Self Creation.
There are no shortcuts to the Journey to Life, that's what I have observed in myself, gotta be self-honest.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that because I have walked over many years that I have reached nothingness whithout testing and making sure of it
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see what reality shows me, in my behaviour and living, that I have not reached nothingness yet
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that this process takes 2555 days of daily writing, nothing less, nothing more.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that there is no easy way, only 'the way'
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become 'lazy' and want to take shortcuts in the Journey to Life
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that every person is a unique case and that I should not compare myself to other people
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can make the Journey to Life in less days than 2555 days/ 7 years.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that standing up is not only in writing a blog daily but in standing up in reality, the way I live every day
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that unless I am the same 'yesterday, today and tomorrow' as Jesus said, I am not changed in fact
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to 'have done it' instead of 'doing it' in fact - the 7 Years Journey to Life
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that even though I might see what I want to do in life, this doesn't mean I have made it to nothingness in the 7 Year Journey to Life
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I have to prove it in real space-time that I have changed in fact
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allwoed myself to believe that I can't make the 7 Year Journey to Life
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allwoed myself to not see that if Bernard did it, I can do it too
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am capable of finishing but most importantly walking the 7 year journey to Life
I commit myself to trust myself that I can walk the 7 year Journey to Life
I commit myself to not give up in the 7 year Journey to Life
I commit myself to walk the 7 Year Journey To Life until it is done, no matter how long it takes
I commit myself to take it one day at a time, and to walk on day at a time and write once a day until it is done
I commit myself to support myself in seeing that unless I walk it every day, or the next day if I miss one day - it will not walk itself
I commit myself to see that I am capable of walking the 7 Year Journey To Life
I commit myself to remind myself that walking the 7 Year Journey To Life is not only on paper but in real-time living
I commit myself to let go of all addictions and behaviors that don't serve myself or Life in my Journey to Life
